Petit à Petit - Little by Little.
When home becomes a mindset rather than a place or a feeling. When does it get better? I know its probably hormones tearing my physical and mental body apart viciously, but I have been consumed by the sadness of trying to ‘find’ and ‘feel’ home for almost 5 years now. I remember a client asked me how I like it having been around for a while now, and I heard myself saying it constantly feels like a phase. It feels temporary and I cannot allow myself settle. It feels like I’m just passing by so I’m just counting down. My friend said it’s also because of the unsettled status we have. Constantly worrying about visa and whatnot. Not to say that having a permanent residency status would automatically make it ‘home’ but it could provide the mental and even physical security to plant yourself in this land because you know you’re here to stay. You can now start to build things and immerse yourself etc. A bonus point could be having someone to carry this weight with. But until then. ...
